viva la health! i finally buckled down (since my boss said i could pay roll deduct the service) and got the keratin complex treatment on my hair. what is this you say? well i'm not entirely sure all the details besides that it is a chemical that goes on the hair to restore the keratin loss (keratin loss creates split ends and ugly hair so condition condition!) annnnd remove frizz/straighten your hair. now i was assured my curls will not be completely murdered but rather more defined and "waved" rather than my julia roberts in pretty woman look. le sigh. in a life where i'm striving for length i want health and this is more of a deep conditioning than a relaxing.
the down side is like a typical relaxer/perm i cant wash my hair for three days! so i have poker straight hair this weekend which anyone who knows me for realz knows the flat straight look ain't my thing! say a prayer. i want to be pretty for the next three months.
i have been having nightmares. terrible ones. usually involving vampires or zombies or bad people in the mall. i roll over and snuggle deep into josh's hunky sleeping body in hopes that he can enter my dream world and fight the danger. he has a history of punching people.
paul is home from georgia which means party time at his place. i am excited to see my friend again.
the weather is warm for now and im so hyped about summer fun. i can't wait for the beach and tofu ice cream at the park. any park. and tan bodies. and fruit stands. and love. and bike rides. and beer.

i know that i've watched too much of the history channel and true blood when i wake up from a terrible dream about hitler, nazis, vampires, and rudy and kelly.
on my days off i typically watch the history channel throughout the day and last week there was so much nazi shiii on. so today i finally watched a couple of episodes of "true blood". sara told me it was awesome and so i tried it and now i'm hooked.
and now i have bad dreams.

this movie looks incredible.



and! watchmen comes out next week.
today is pancake day at ihop. i have to work till 3. free pancakes later, anyone??!

oscars.

its 4am and i am home from the loving arms of my loving man man. boooooo. mans gotta work so i can gamble for real.
i had a wild night of gambling and apparently i'm really awesome at it?
i had a very successful lucky streak on roulette.
seriously, i owned that table.
atlantic city? vegas? who wants to go with me??
i won a wii tonight but then some jerk of a mt. pleasant (probably) employee stole it. so i ended up with a digital camera at the end of the night. its an olympus which i dont know anything about but hey i haven't had a point shoot in years annnnd it was FREE! it'll be nice.

so i have a lot of photos of me looking too cute to handle and blahblahblah for a time when i have a little more power. yessss.

when i said that i would probably never see you again
i really meant that i hope i never have to see you again.

burn.

i have come so far and so much has changed since the days of insanity in my life.
its really all about choices and how we handle things when the going gets tough.
i'm not perfect but i think i've done a good job.

also, for a little lady i have the largest ass in town. try to compete with it.

i can't drink beer like i used to. i hadn't had a sip of alcohol in what feels like months until recently and now i drink one beer and my tummy is too full to proceed. i used to be pretty good at it. sorry to let everyone down.
i have been a vegetarian for two years now. i am proud of that.
no one believed i would make it!
i cannot wait for joshua and i to start our life together.
i suppose it has already started but...yes.
i also cannot wait for my derrick brown book to come in.
today is customer appreciation day at rudy and kelly.
this means cake and balloons. yea yea.
tomorrow is our banquet.
this means looking gooooood.
sunday or monday means hopefully finishing "the subterraneans" which i started a million years ago. i just miss kerouac when he was new and fun. to me.

best valentines day/weekend ever.
ever!
josh and i got a condo in williamsburg and i couldn't have asked for anything more perfect. mmmmmmm. more details (maybe) and a million pictures coming at cha later!

goin to work then goin to williamsburg.
condo love party in the colony.
i've been up way too long.
too excited to sleep.
goodness gracious.
v-day is great but im looking forward to love day.

randoms.





in the spirit of v-day, its been close to half a year since josh and i started dating. i can't even believe how much life has changed in that time. i'm not complaining either. everything has changed for the better. josh once told me that being with me was like the first time he rode his bike without training wheels. i told him about the first time i rode my bike without training wheels. it was a long story about how i ran into a tree and vowed never to get back on it etc etc and the story ended with me deciding that being with josh and feeling all the love he has for me is like home. it feels like when when my dad blew on my bloody knee after that horrible bike accident, told me i was beautiful and then took me to mcdonalds for chicken nuggets dipped in honey and then reading black beauty to me before bed assuring me that the world really was my oyster. with him i feel like me and the me that i want to be and the me that really really likes riding her bike.
didn't mean to make anyone hurl or roll their eyes but that's just the way i feel, dudes!

sloths

this always made me laugh

i'm selling my old ibook for parts on ebay. its currently at $150. so i've earned the money back for the hard drive i bought that was never successful. hopefully i can get some more! i didn't expect to get more than forty bucks.
75 degree weather today.
party time.
i can't wait to go back to the lake.

it was a stupendous day. just as i had imagined. only slip ups today involved a terrible celtics ending which left everyone a bit down but life was restored when josh and i watched "che", which i guess the story line was a bit of a bummer too...but i really enjoyed the movie. i got to eat pancakes, go to the park with jimmy and tommy, shoot pictures, cuddle and kiss on my man all day and all night. my insides, outsides, lovesides were all warm and i loved it.

hello warmer weather! my holga and i have missed you!
yes. as soon as i finish this workin day i'm having a photo weekend.
i seriously can't wait for valentines day. i got josh the best vday gift in town! or at least in his town. exciting things are happening in this relationship. very very excited.
my mom is giving me her van. in other words i will be driving sarah osborn's old van hah!
i'm in love with the idea.
i need to get my financial aid together. i am slacktastic when it comes to this. i can't wait to go back to school and to start working with children. i just wish those children were animals. talking animals. in narnia. maybe.
peace!

lakers
gay-kers

the past few mornings when ive arrived home from josh's ive been greeted at the door by the same spider cricket. i think thats what they're called. kangaroo crickets? i'm not sure. the jumping devil cricket. it stands its ground and is not threatened by any threat i make with a shoe, my screams, my towering height above it!...those things haven't been scared of anything since i first encountered them back when we had band practice in katie's garage everyday. so anyway, everytime i try to get into my house the cricket does too and leaps towards me as if to steal my keys, unlock the door, enter, and lock me out in the cold. its terrifying! terrifying...

i beat "streets of rage" with jimmy. i rule.
i continue to get better at self control. if you know me well you know i've struggled in the past with that in many different ways to struggle with it.
pancakes have become my favorite food.

"he got game" was just as great as i imagined. denzel was the only good acting cred in that movie but i will never deny my love for ray allen even if he was getting it on with insanely large breasted white women.
went to landons last night. he continues to be the nicest human on the planet.
most everyone on the steelers looks disgusting.
i'm feeling better. no need for anyone to be concerned.
my heart grew ten times bigger in love with joshua yesterday.
for no reason in particular.