Tuesday, October 21, 2008

just a thought. i was thinking about how many times i got out of a car at 3 am only to shout out "asshole!" and stumble inside to three more hours of sleep and then work and then get picked up from work by that "asshole!"
i thought a little bit about the good drop offs too. i'll give it to ya. when i was the "most beautiful girl in the world" and the only thing that upset me at 3 am in my drive way was the thought of a zombie attack. i'm always on the look out.

flash forward. none of that shit matters.
its really cold outside and i am the luckiest girl in the world and after so many hits and knock downs i still run to the door as fast as i can at 2 am from possible zombies but i do it knowing for a fact this time that i am beautiful, intelligent, loved, and so so so blessed.
growth used to scare the hell out of me and the physical side of it still does
but it feels good. i mean im into it.


i wish i attended the university of maryland.
or africa
id attend africa.



4 comments:

Anonymous said...

growth is good. embrace it... rush in with open arms! don't worry about being too graceful, its not worth the waste of time.

it doesn't matter what anyone thinks but you, and don't forget that.

you are beautiful, and i'm glad to hear that you're eager.

ps: i like the way he makes you smile.

kimjong said...

thank you so much
he gives me the best smiles.

Sara Guns said...

I still run into the house when the damn silent hill siren comes on!

kimjong said...

that siren is so scary...i woke up in the morning on sunday scared to death. you need to come home. i mean it. bring all the kids. you can stay here. i just want you bck in my arms girl. i love you...