for no reason

i've been in hiding lately. im a pretty private kid so i'm really sorry to everyone who has been asking me whats been going on and is getting no answer. i just really can't talk about it. i don't want to talk about it. the only people who have really seen me are my family, co-workers, and rachel. i just don't really feel like making efforts to organize activities. i can say though that a few weeks ago i was really happy. like happier then being in tokyo happy and happier than mating with a god happy. and now things aren't feeling like that. so that's the only update. im still alive, kids and i plan on pushing through it but in this time right now i think i'll just google jason schwartzman and think about lessons learned.