i got a bit of inspiration tonight. it was the shot of nyquil i think and a picture of a smoking boy i used to hang out with. i started trying to draw this boy and i realized that a year ago when i was at the art center i would have done an awesome job. i suck.
i need to get back into my art. at least a little bit.
i got my nails shaved down so i could start playing guitar again BY THE WAY
i remember when i was a little girl and my grandma would have something new for me to do every day of the summer that would encourage my creative juices to keep a'flowin. i remember learning how to sew and making my own clay tea sets. i think the clay was my favorite. i remember getting older and teaching the younger kids in the neighborhood every day of the summer a new craft.
i was never told not to play with my food and drawing/painting on my bedroom walls was never discouraged either.
i wish i were more awesome.
i want pottery back in my world and finger paint. i want to tie-dye in my back yard and make a million collages of baby whales and state maps. who needs a state map.
i wanna play.

watch and learn

watch this movie that a friend of mine by the name of alex germanotta made.
death
yep. its about death for real. you have to watch through it and see the little boys creative way in which he would like to die. it involves legs turning into fire logs and brains exploding. alex is a very talented creature. check out that shiii.

how dare they not be a couple anymore...


and why did a pony-tail wearing asshole with a lebret piercing ever have to come into my life and become my single most disliked creature that i have met in all my 22 years?

i was thinking about marriage and after everything i went through as a kid i probably shouldnt even believe in marriage...and about how with my commitment issues i shouldnt even begin asking people to consider marrying me! but im crazy about it. im crazy about love and relationships and all the silly everythings about it all.
i was thinking about a conversation with julia about how as humans we just "love" to go through the pains of "love". why are we able to do these things to ourselves? i dont know i dont know but i was in the mood for "annie hall" tonight which has always been a favorite and woody has a great quote at the end which i have stolen from sparknotes.com to get it exact:

“I thought of that old joke. This guy goes to a psychiatrist and says, ‘Doc, my brother’s crazy. He thinks he’s a chicken.’ And the doctor says, ‘Well, why don’t you turn him in?’ And the guy says, ‘I would, but I need the eggs.’ Well, I guess that’s pretty much now how I feel about relationships. They’re totally irrational and crazy and absurd and . . . but I guess we keep going through it because most of us need the eggs.”

and thaaaat is that!!

last night my mom was freaking out about her hair and demanding me to call ryan and tell him how she needed her hair styled. she went as far as saying that she was so over her hair that she was getting "the hilary". ohhh jeez. i love on some hilary but no no no. no good.

next year in jerusalem.

it's passover time so last night i had dinner with jacob and his family.
my stomach is still stuffed with unleavened foods and bitter herbs!
i got to read the four questions.
jacob and i left the door open for elijah all night waiting for him to come and drink his glass of wine. he never came...elijah is pretty much the jews santa claus but i like the idea of elijah a lot more.
a traditional seder dinner looks like this:


thanks to the wedding jake and i are preparing to play music for i cannot for the life of me remove "maybe im amazed" from my brain and the killer lead jake has been playing on it. damn you paullllllllly.
it is raining a lot.
id like to start helping creatures more.
oh,and yesterday kirk made me a caramel apple spice. it was the best drink of my life. next to nan's homemade gimlets.
yep.

i had terrible dreams last night. terrible.
i did get to meet david beckham and the la galaxy was actually better than the italian soccer team. not that i really know much about any of that..but i got an idea. david was nice.
after waking from such a terrible dream i watched this and it warmed my heart: