loooove.




beach time with landon and josh yesterday was just what the doctor ordered to get me feeling life again! we ate mexican and watched the lakers win the finals. i like that we have been seeing landon more. he is a marvelous human. the other night i was lying in bed with josh watching basketball and he was next to me reading a graphic novel. i never thought in a million years that roles would be reversed like that and he'd be the comic nerd and i the sports fan. hah!

lets start off by saying i happily take birth control every day. even if it is pricey. gotta be responsible *EDIT* because I'M not ready for a baby.
congrats to jesse and kelly. i love the both of you and i'm excited for your future and musica babies.

i scared everyone in my family and went on a rampage last night. thats what happens when theres an open bar and little kim jong decides to keep taking shots. i really don't ever drink, people. i really don't. but when i do...and i mean drink a lot more than other humans around me...sometimes i destroy things. like my room. as i found out this morning. and my dad told me all about it. i'm a monster. i haven't been like this in a long time. oooh jeeezzz.

i called julia in the morning to clear my thoat and get things out in the open (her open) that i've never talked about. feel like a new woman. a very hungover woman but good.

going to the ocean to feel alive again. later.

some photos from last weekend.

one of my favorite things about dating josh is that we have so much fun together. i never ever laugh harder than when i'm around him.

in other news my family is selling the house. i wanted them to hold off till i finished school at the end of the summer but its not my call ya know. so i'm not sure exactly where i'll go. see ya!

i also finally watched "revolutionary road" last night. hit my emotions too hard.

i now have a million new photos to speak of. as soon as i return to the place i call "home" i will upload for everyone to enjoy. we've done a lot this weekend. a lot of fun in the sun. lara came out to the hotel with us on saturday night and i had a blast with her. hit up the beach yesterday with a bunch of people and i am now a new shade of red. yesss. i ate a lot of pizza and fell asleep with my man. woke up today and here i am. type typing. i haven't been on the internet in what feels like forever when really its been about two days. ha!

good news: i am happy to say that the band is getting back together! yes. although we will no longer go by "beautiful uncertainty" we are going to be a "beautiful uncertainty" cover band. startin fresh, dudes. i hope you're as excited as i am. fill your glasses with bourbon because lara and i are back.

because i haven't had my camera around and i have no new pictures to speak of, i am going to post this picture because i just found it.
hello two years ago.
hello jake gyllenhaal on my guitar.

ive been having a lot of fun so far in this warm weather! last night i went to a tides game with good people and today i ate breakfast with good people and then relaxed at the beach with julia. there are good people all around and the earth is so beautiful. i told julia we were fortunate to be earthlings today because if we were on mars it wouldn't be as cool. i just feel really happy.

i had another fantastic weekend but this time my camera was not with me for any of it.
i missed so much! darn. it all ended with my boyfriend performing a striptease for me infront of everyone to lady gaga. seriously, that man has me laughing harder than any other human ever. i am a pretty lucky girl.
i hate when our weekends end and its back to work.