its 4am and i am home from the loving arms of my loving man man. boooooo. mans gotta work so i can gamble for real.
i had a wild night of gambling and apparently i'm really awesome at it?
i had a very successful lucky streak on roulette.
seriously, i owned that table.
atlantic city? vegas? who wants to go with me??
i won a wii tonight but then some jerk of a mt. pleasant (probably) employee stole it. so i ended up with a digital camera at the end of the night. its an olympus which i dont know anything about but hey i haven't had a point shoot in years annnnd it was FREE! it'll be nice.

so i have a lot of photos of me looking too cute to handle and blahblahblah for a time when i have a little more power. yessss.

when i said that i would probably never see you again
i really meant that i hope i never have to see you again.

burn.

i have come so far and so much has changed since the days of insanity in my life.
its really all about choices and how we handle things when the going gets tough.
i'm not perfect but i think i've done a good job.

also, for a little lady i have the largest ass in town. try to compete with it.

i can't drink beer like i used to. i hadn't had a sip of alcohol in what feels like months until recently and now i drink one beer and my tummy is too full to proceed. i used to be pretty good at it. sorry to let everyone down.
i have been a vegetarian for two years now. i am proud of that.
no one believed i would make it!
i cannot wait for joshua and i to start our life together.
i suppose it has already started but...yes.
i also cannot wait for my derrick brown book to come in.
today is customer appreciation day at rudy and kelly.
this means cake and balloons. yea yea.
tomorrow is our banquet.
this means looking gooooood.
sunday or monday means hopefully finishing "the subterraneans" which i started a million years ago. i just miss kerouac when he was new and fun. to me.

best valentines day/weekend ever.
ever!
josh and i got a condo in williamsburg and i couldn't have asked for anything more perfect. mmmmmmm. more details (maybe) and a million pictures coming at cha later!

goin to work then goin to williamsburg.
condo love party in the colony.
i've been up way too long.
too excited to sleep.
goodness gracious.
v-day is great but im looking forward to love day.

randoms.





in the spirit of v-day, its been close to half a year since josh and i started dating. i can't even believe how much life has changed in that time. i'm not complaining either. everything has changed for the better. josh once told me that being with me was like the first time he rode his bike without training wheels. i told him about the first time i rode my bike without training wheels. it was a long story about how i ran into a tree and vowed never to get back on it etc etc and the story ended with me deciding that being with josh and feeling all the love he has for me is like home. it feels like when when my dad blew on my bloody knee after that horrible bike accident, told me i was beautiful and then took me to mcdonalds for chicken nuggets dipped in honey and then reading black beauty to me before bed assuring me that the world really was my oyster. with him i feel like me and the me that i want to be and the me that really really likes riding her bike.
didn't mean to make anyone hurl or roll their eyes but that's just the way i feel, dudes!