one of my favorites

so long honey babe
where I'm bound, i cant tell
goodbye is too good a word babe
so ill just say fare thee well
i aint a sayin you treated me unkind
you could of done better but i dont mind
you just kinda wasted my precious time
dont think twice, its all right

i saw "the happening" last night. it only made me want to go home and straighten my hair. i think that was all i really could think about afterwards.
i didnt go home and straighten my hair though. i went home and stopped breathing.
i was heavily medicated and now life is a-okay!
the great dismal swamp has been burning. this makes me a sad kim jong. bats, raccoons, white tailed deer...black bear and bobcats?! nuts...

to the day!

today i love:
artistic freedom
vitamin C
hard drugs
my cave
patchouli

misery loves company

moral of this whole story:
no one can be trusted

this is how i want it all to end:

fun in the sun
garden salsa sun chips
good friendships
warm water
mermaid castles
great racks
jungle golf
johnam kisses
orange juice in place of beer
john lennon impersonations
tecktonic movements
a good wednesday

ny

i went to new york this past weekend to play guitar for cody's wedding.
before any wedding anything happened i camped, fought monster bugs,
hiked a gorge, hung out with hippies, drank wine and wine and beer and
beer and thennnn cody got married.





the wedding was beautiful and new york is beautiful. i made one million
"jurassic park" references because thats what i do and about 5 or 6 " the last
of the mohicans" references because being close to the mohican area it
just felt right. ever since i was a little girl i have loved the last
of the mohicans and im not really sure i shouldve been watching white men get scalped at a young age but my mom always said us kids needed culture.
daniel day lewis is the man and on the way to new york i read to john
and jacob his biography courtesy of imdb.com.because im awesome.

recent activity. sort of.

NOT an excuse

im going to new york. im going to sleep in a tent. im going to play guitar for old hippies. im going to learn to make dream catchers and weave blankets. im going to sell them to tourists. im going to eat meat because eventually i will go insane from the berries and snake meat will be the only thing to cure me. im going to grow lots of hair on my legs to protect me from bug bites. im not looking back. im mainly just excited about dream cathers.

i feel like i have lost a lot of what i cared about in life in a matter of a month. its a bit painful. i lost the best friend (i mean face it we knew that was going but..) so i lost the band. i lose a friend everyday it seems. i lost almost all the trust i could have ever been given from the one kid in town i wanted to keep more than anything. i mean obviously i lost it all because im an idiot. i get it.
a very very important friend of mine said the best thing to me in response to someone talking about my current situation (which really...i wish people would stop coming up to me and asking me about it. is this on perezhilton.com?honestly. ive gone lohan status sheesh). he said, "sometimes you have to love someone for who they are not what they do." simple words it made me feel alive still. it made me so very happy and lucky to have that kid around. so thank you,jacob castello. im still kickin and i plan on staying awesome forever. the kids in my world that love me even though im crazy and have done things they disagree with are the greatest people ever and i want to make each one of them a bundt cake with their name on it. everyone loves a cake with their name on it.